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Unexpectedly Beautiful

November 30, 2018


There are times when I see our six kiddos together, and I’m just overwhelmed with gratitude. In those moments, I can’t help but stop and thank God for making this large family of ours a reality, because there was a time when we thought that even one child was an impossibility…


I remember it clearly. I can still taste the devastation I felt when a medical professional called to inform me and Bryan that our chances of having children were very slim. It was one of the darkest times – if not THE darkest time – in our marriage. But, during that dark time, God planted the seed of adoption in our hearts. And, years later, after blessing us with the miraculous gifts of Sidney and Jackson, the seed that had been planted in the darkness broke through the surface and into the light. Discussions of adoption started resurfacing, which ultimately led us to the decision to adopt Grace. Morganne then surprised us all with her grand entrance. And that surprise was followed up with two more adoption journeys, because we had fallen head-over-heels in love with Grace, and with the beauty of adoption.

Six kids in just twelve years. What a journey it’s been.

It has taken several years of healing, but I can truly say now that I am thankful for our infertility journey. I am thankful. I know that sounds strange, and it feels strange typing out those words. But, as horrible as it was, and as dark of a time as it was, I AM thankful for it, in retrospect. Because, during that time, God was given the space to begin planting seeds, and cultivating our hearts for something truly amazing.

So, here we are today. A family of eight. If you had asked me on that dark day, after that dark phone conversation, if six children would be in our future, I would have stopped crying just long enough to tell you that you were nuts. But, that’s how God works, doesn’t He? He has the power to take our greatest sources of pain, and turn them into our greatest wellsprings of joy. He can take something that feels like our biggest defeat, and turn it into our biggest triumph. He has the power to transform our mourning into dancing. He enters into the darkness of our lives, and dispels it with His brilliant light…which offers both comfort and clarity for the journey ahead. And that’s exactly what He did for us. He dispelled the darkness of infertility with His light, and has shown us – with great clarity – that He was able to take our great pain and turn it into a great purpose.

As Adoption Awareness Month comes to a close, I just want to encourage those of you out there who might be battling infertility. Invite God into the painfully dark time you are in right now, and allow Him to shine hope into it. Trust that He is for you, not against you. Put your family plans into His hands. And keep your eyes open. He may lead you down paths you never thought you’d go down. He may or may not lead you toward adoption. But, whatever path He leads you down, you can trust that it will take you to unexpectedly beautiful places. He did that for us, and I have every reason to believe that He will do it for you, too. 💕


2 Comments leave one →
  1. December 1, 2018 12:30 am

    Love it!!!! 💙💜💙💜💙💜

  2. Luo Jiang permalink
    December 1, 2018 12:08 pm

    God will return you with forever good health n good luck !

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